Each man has the worst time in his life, mistakes and cataclysms. I had them too. I made plenty of mistakes. I was against the state and in the conflict with myself. I was sentenced and punished. I am not ashamed to say it. But there are some differences, Killings, robberies and stealings can't be taken as the some thing. I didn't do it. I didn't kill or rape anybody. I couldn't simply find an opportunity to make my life better. I wasn't paid enough and i wanted to buy better clothes. I was caught. Life is the school. You have to try and study a lot. You have to study even when it is difficult to.

But I can say that I'm a normal person who can admit own guilty and mistakes. I could be in prison but my hands and hurt are free. I think i had a moment in my life when i was in danger. Who could prove it? All people have intuition. With intuition you can avoid many difficulties.

I know people who have a great deal of money. It is dangerous. But it is not mine. I don't want to teach them. I don't fight with anybody but I can't let anybody to teach me. It is not the threat. It is only the right to be free.

I don't run my own business, I don't have plenty of money but I have stable legal profit.

Most that I have done is oil- painted but also I have water- colored works and works in pencil. I have 90 works, landscapes, flowers. I also made some copies of well- known painters.

The great techers for me are: Sisikin, Levitan, Vasiljev, Kuindzu, Brylov, Repin, Aivazovski, Kramskoy. I need the whole life to be taught by them and more.I donat have the special education, I was in 6 form when i started paiting.

I did it well.

I had my first exhibitions in Business Center, in the Russian Drama Theatre and in Town Hall Square when i was in prison.

The minister of justice, Mart Rask, and reprepresentatives of Russian embassy visited the opening of my first exhibition. My works were shown in Viljandi, Keila, Mardu.

Many people saw my works and love them. And I like it. Sometimes I am asked about the cost of my paintings. But I don't want to sell them inspite of big money. For "Lilac" was given 2500 USD. To tell the truth I didn't know what to do and that made me cautious. I was afraid to be taken into unclear business. For the big works I was given 35.000- 40.000. But I didn't sell anything. Money comes and leaves. But my works can be seen and shown.

Sometimes I play the piano. I can't do it well, I wasn't taught. I don't know even notes but my feelings help me. So I have something inside me that could be shown in music. I don't have enough time to practice a lot. But what I can is not difficult to me. I put my fingers and then play.

I have enough information that I want to put into the book "The life and creation of Nikolay Bleskov." There will be my works, my autobiography with all fights, mistakes and victories.

There will be my declaration. All that were done were done by a normal person who could fight against destiny. Nobody makes me to believe in what I can't believe by myself.